"What time is it?!?"

"Game time!", "Tool Time!", "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Time!!!"

Yeah, I totally made up that last one...

Attention class! Raise your hand if you've seen the new Harry Potter movie... Now, those who saw it before it came out -- and for free -- keep them raised. HECK YES I DID!!!!

It was so incredibly, stinkin' awesome!!!! It is, by far, the best HP film that has been made...no lie. I peed my pants so many times that night.... (1. because I was so excited about seeing it, and 2. because I fo' sho' was not going to get up during that movie and miss any of it... hahaha! Juuuust kidding.)

That was really all I had to say for now. I do have a rant post that I'm working on to post at a later time...be prepared.

The End.

Carousel Ride...again

"By a round of applause, how are you feeling?"

So...I've been thinking about writing this post for a while now...yep. I finally decided that I would post the lyrics to The Canvas Waiting's song Carousel Ride, because that's what my life feels like right now -- what is expressed in the lyrics. So, I went looking for the lyrics to copy and paste on here and remembered that I had posted them in a blog on my MySpace some time ago. So, I find the entry and I read what I had written...and ironically...well...yeah, I'll just let you read it.


(posted 07/05/06)
Carousel Ride
The Canvas Waiting

On your carousel ride this tossing and turning
what am I learning from all of these trials
I am what I am but I know you could change me.
Its so hard to look on the past with a smile.
But you can change everything,
that I am that I was that I'm becoming.
If theres risks than Ill take them
if theres walls then well break them.

I could waste a lifetime.
Just wondering where I went wrong
and how the world just passed me by.
But in You Ive found my reason.
You're the reason that I'm alive.
Keep me within arms reach tonight.

On your carousel ride I get the feeling
wherever I am Ill be with you tonight.
These things that I hide there's no use concealing
when you've promised to stay by my side.
And you know me better than I could ever hope to know myself
and you are my confidence when I can trust no one else.

I could waste a lifetime.
Just wondering where I went wrong
and how the world just passed me by.
But in You Ive found my reason.
You're the reason that I'm alive.
Keep me within arms reach tonight.

On your carousel ride all that I know is your all that I'm needing tonight
and I'm satisfied just knowing that your mine.
Your Mine.


So, yeah...completely irritated and frustrated. I'm to the point -- again -- of wanting to quit. To throw in the towel. To give up. Sucksville! 'Cause at the same time I really, really want to be with God and close to Him. Again...sucksville! That very first line of the song, "On your carousel ride this tossing and turning what am I learning from all of these trials?" is what I'm feeling. It's like, "God, why are you having me go through this crap phase when I want to be with You? Why are You allowing me to want to be -- indulge in -- someone who is openly defiant to everything I know You don't want?" (Just to clear up, because I know it sounds confusing, I'm talking about me being openly defiant and not some guy or people I hang out with. It sounded like I'm in some sort of relationship with someone not really of God. Not the case...unless you count it as a relationship with myself...but then that just sounds weird too.)

Hello! Confused!

So, yeah. Battling and butting heads with myself. Let's use the analogy of a firework (because of Happy Freedom and Fireworks Day). The side of me that wants God is like a firework with a semi to a wet fuse. It may light, but it's not gonna ignite the powder to send it shooting off. The other side the fuse is not so wet or whatever...but the rocket's not really going anywhere, and if it is...it's not exploding; it's not really a dud either. Does any of this make sense?

Anyway. That's where I am and how I feel and I'm...HATING IT...

The End.


So, there it is. Anyone catch anything? I am practically in the same place as I was this time last year. Different degree of circumstances, but nonetheless the same place...

Widget rhymes with Gidget....

...And Gidget rhymes with Sandra Dee and/or Sally Field.

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"What you know about Doors?...

...You're too young to know Doors."

That lovely quote comes from the Indian gas station attendant... So, here's to you Mr. Indian man, you made me laugh!

So...I've come to realize -- yet again -- that you really do feel better if you simply sit and read God's Word. There's just something about it that kicks the happy feelings up a notch. *happy sigh*

I've started reading 1 Samuel and from there I will move to 2 Samuel and then into the Gospel of John (by request/suggestion of a friend). So far, its good. hahaha! I haven't gotten too far into it yet because it was really late when I started reading last night and I'm still at the crust of it. Pretty good crust though (How gross does that analogy sound? You don't usually associate crust with tasty...unless its pie, or something else with a tasty crust...)

Updates on how that goes shall be posted later on...

So, we are currently getting prepared for the big Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows realease party at work... I found out that I am one of the costume judges. That's cool...that's cool. I will be dressed up (Because they really want us to and because I really just want to...yes, I am that dorky...) as none other than, Hermione Granger (A show of hands who was shocked...anyone, anyone...I didn't think so.) I also found out that all of us working that evening are working 5-2 shifts... 5 in the p.m. to 2 in the a.m. I certainly hope I am off the next day! P.s., feel free to come by and visit and point and laugh or whatever...

Anyway...that's all for today...

The End.