"You're not alone, I hear you call."

"I've been waiting here for you through it all."

Hello, hello. It's been a while. My apologies...

The honest truth of why I haven't posted in a while: I couldn't think of any good opening quotes. No lie. How...pathetic and dorky is that? I'll answer for you. Very. Moving on.

I just got back (just got back = Saturday morning) from a mission trip to Baltimore, Maryland. We did some renovating work on the church and a townhouse that the church owns. Painting inside the church and repairs in the townhouse. The church, Seventh Baptist Church, is absolutely one of the most beautiful churches I have ever stepped inside! It was built in the 1800's, I think, and the architecture was breathtakingly beautiful! The townhouse we worked on was beautiful as well. I have loads of pictures from the trip. I've posted most of them on my facebook, but I'll try to get some of them on here as soon as I can.

I'm in a funk right now. I'm slightly depressed because I have this overwhelming sense of loneliness taking me over. Not just lonely as in I'm single, but in other relationships as well. My eyes were opened earlier today to the reasoning behind this: God's trying to get my attention, again. Somewhere along the road I replaced Him with my relationships with others. I went and screwed things up again and am now being brought to the reality of it.

I don't really know what to do. I keep telling God that too. I mean, the only thing I know to do is talk to Him and read His Word, but it feels like there is something else that I should be doing, and I can't put my finger on it. And that's very frustrating.

I don't like problems. I don't like rifts in relationships. I want things fixed. I want peace and happiness.

That's not happening. At least, not right now.

So, right now I am frustrated. Many tears are being shed. Many conversations that mainly consist of me crying to God telling Him how lost I feel, how sorry I am, etc.. And I really do have this overwhelming sense of being cut off and isolated from others.

Okay, You have my attention. 

When will the emptiness and pain go away? I'm not enjoying the lost child feeling and the cry at the drop of a hat emotions.

The End.

"I just want to light him on fire and say..."

"WHO'S BURNIN' NOW?!"

I was never so much the proud hearing that (partial) quote come out of the mouth of the person who said it... Hahaha!

So, in approximatackally five days, we're leaving for Baltimore! Woo hoo! Excited dance, excited dance!

Peace out.

The End.

P.s., I need a new book to read. Any recommendations to add to my list to choose from? So far I have 1)The Once And Future King, T.H. White and 2)I Captured The Castle, by Dodie Smith. Juuuuust checking.

"Happy Birthday America!"

"You finally qualify for the Seniors Discount at Denny's."

Hello children! It has been quite, quite, quite a while. Yes? Yes. I'm sorry. I said in my last post that I would, hopefully, be posting my Summer Playlist, and I have kept my word. That's one of the reasons why it has taken me so long to post again. I've had to go through all my music, choose songs, and then weed out and condense down...to 25 songs. It was originally at 100. That, my friends, is an accomplishment for me...

Before I post that list I must mention something that I really should have posted but did not. I played (my 3rd time, but 2nd time at this particular place) at Smoothie Joe's on 6/28. I'll hopefully have a few pictures up from that later on.

So, without further delay, my Summer2008 Playlist:

All That Matters, Addison Road

Suzie, Boy Kill Boy
How Love Goes, Brandon Kelley
Until You, Dave Barnes
Yours, Dizmas
I Could Be There For You, Eisley
Unglued, Fair
The Minnow & The Trout, A Fine Frenzy
Lost Without Each Other, Hanson
Call Me Mister, Heath McNease
Goodnight and Go, Imogen Heap
Let It Fly, Jackson Waters
Sula, Jeremy Fisher
Industry, Jon McLaughlin
Become Who You Are, Mainstay
Home, Marc Broussard
Love Like This, Natasha Bedingfield feat. Sean Kingston
Lovefool, New Found Glory feat. Adam Lazzara
The King of Wishful Thinking, New Found Glory feat. Patrick Stump
All Fall Down, OneRepublic
Trouble, Over The Rhine
Forever My Friend, Ray LaMontagne
Better, Regina Spektor
Falling, Tyrone Wells
Check Yes Juliet, We The Kings

So, that is my Summer days list. I also compiled a drive-at-night-with-the-windows-down Summer Playlist. It has 80 songs and not condensed at all.

Still Alright, Adam Merrin
This Time The Dream's On Me, Alison Krauss
Two, Amber Rubarth
Falling Out Of Love, Aqualung
Sunday Best, Agustana
Kiss The Rain, Billie Myers
Throw It All Away, Brandi Carlile
Make You Feel My Love, Bryan Ferry
One More Day With You, Chauntelle DuPree
Fix You, Coldplay
Cannonball, Damien Rice
9 Crimes, Damien Rice
Until You, Dave Barnes
What Am I Gonna Do, Dave Barnes
#34, Dave Matthews Band
Satellite, Dave Matthews Band
Nature Boy, David Bowie & Massive Attack
LA, Dean Fields
Yankess Bayonet (I Will Be Home Then), The Decemberists
Walk With You, Dispatch
A Drop In The Ocean, The District
Take You Away, Drew Kuehner
If You're Wondering, Eisley
Marvelous Things, Eisley
Past The Stars, Eric Skelton
Almost Lover, A Fine Frenzy
Be Good Or Be Gone, Fionn Regan
Homebird, Foy Vance
Let It Go, Freddy Litwiniuk
How We Operate, Gomez
Bound By Love, Gran Bel Fisher
The Walk, Hanson
Dark Waltz, Hayley Westenra
Wuthering Heights, Hayley Westenra
Center Of Attention, Jackson Waters
Save Me, Jem
Scar That Never Heals, Jeremy Fisher
Take Your Steps, Jimmy Eat World
No One Cares, Jimmy Eat World
May Angels Lead You In, Jimmy Eat World
Far Away Blues, Joe Purdy
Pearls, Johnnie Shaneyfelt
Close Your Eyes, Jump Little Children
Scratch, Kendall Payne
All I Want From You Is Love, Let's Go Sailing
Simon, Lifehouse
Somewhere In Between, Lifehouse
I Need You, Lionel Neykov
Hang On, Mainstay
Wild Hope, Mandy Moore
I Will Not Take My Love Away, Matt Wertz
Falling Off The Face Of The Earth, Matt Wertz
Tracing Paper (An Argument), Monarch
Holiest Of Thieves, The Myriad
Rosie's Lullaby, Norah Jones
Won't Stop, OneRepublic
Taking My Chances/One Big Love, Patty Griffin
Creep, Radiohead
Crazy, Ray LaMontagne
Shelter, Ray LaMontagne
Real Love, Regina Spektor
You Didn't Know, Renee Stahl
Paper Doll, Rosie Thomas
Much Farther To Go, Rosie Thomas
Gravity, Sara Bareilles
Closing Time, Semisonic
The Lines Of My Earth, Sixpence None The Richer
Quicksand, Sleeping At Last
Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want, The Smiths
Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol
Run, Snow Patrol
Flower In Rain, Stephen Kellogg and The Sixers
Out Of My League, Stephen Speaks
When The Stars Go Blue, Tyler Hilton and Bethany Joy Lenz
Ships, Umbrellas
Life Is Beautiful, Vega4
Somebody Loved, The Weepies
World Spins Madly On, The Weepies
City Of Devils, Yellowcard
How I Go, Yellowcard

Well, kiddies. That's it. Those are the soundtracks to my Summer...as things stand right now. Hahaha!

P.s., I finally watched The Wizard of OZ while listening to Pink Floyd's Dark Side of The Moon. Please, if you haven't, do so. It's hilarious. Especially when you have the matchup list... (I don't have the link on the desktop so I'll have to post that later from the Mac).

Enjoy your Holiday! Peace out.

The End.