"It's a bit exciting; breaking all the rules."

"Who are you and what have you done with Hermione Granger?"

Yes, I bought Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix on Tuesday... *sigh* So happy...

Moving on!

So, I left a rather short message last time, thought I would expand on some things.

I resigned as Children's Lead late last week, as you've read. Mainly for 2 reasons: 1) I eventually am going to start doing music more and need to have a more flexible schedule to do so, and 2) I have started feeling the weight of that position (i.e., stress, anxiety, etc..).

I noticed about a month ago a change in myself, a change I don't like at all. I've started to become a more angry person, I become frustrated more easily, and my stress level and anxiety level have gone up quite a bit. I started becoming someone I don't want to become. I began hating a job that I love going to and doing.

So, I began praying about it and believe that this is a step that God would have me take. And I really can't explain the feeling inside me more than being able to breathe (as stated before). When I think about my job as Lead I have this overwhelming sense that I'm being suffocated or drowning, and then I think about not being Lead and *whew*...I can breathe.

I'm burned out, and if I continue like that I won't be very useful.

So...that's that.

As far as music goes...

Some I have told, so you know this already, but for those of you who do not know...here we go:

About a week ago I sent a letter/message to Boyd DuPree (he's the dad of the majority of the band) and Eisley (my fav. band). Basically I have requested if they would be open to taking me along on a future tour as sort of an intern crew member/"roadie". I think this would be a very, very good first-hand learning experience for me as far as the music business goes. Plus, who better to learn from than a group of people you admire and respect, not just musically, but morally as well (yes, they are Christians...woot!). I am still awaiting a response from them, and don't expect one for probably (at least) another month because of the season and because they get loads of messages all the time.

Anyway. So that's what's going on right now...

The End.