"Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit,"

"and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again?"

I've noticed a pattern. No matter how much I try and I fight, I can't stop this cycle. Pray? What do you think I do every time the pain rips its way through my heart again? I cry to God because no one else is around.

Words speak loud, actions speak louder. Give me reason not to doubt. Give me reason to believe I'm not invisible.

I wonder if its my fault.